SAHMwich : this sacrifice

Friday, June 14, 2013

this sacrifice

I feel I had a breakthrough last night during my prayer time, and that multiple times in my reading today the Lord has reinforced it.

Over and over in the NT we hear Jesus ask his followers to give up everything they know and follow him. And that he doesn't stand around and wait for people to say goodbye to their families, to put away their boats or livestock. He says if i am going to follow him I gotta drop everything and do it today, immediately! What really struck me today while reading Luke, where Jesus is talking about his second coming. He says:
"On that day, a person who is on the roof and whose belongings are in the house should not go inside to get them. A person who is in the field working should not go back home. Remember Lot's wife. [this part right here is what really got me--] *Those who try to keep their lives will lose them. But those who give up their lives will save them.*" Luke 17:31-33

Last night as I prayed I broke. I was wrestling with the Lord over a few things and what I realized is that it's pointless to fight. What am I fighting for? To stay miserable? If Jesus walked by and asked me to go with him would I REALLY be able to just walk away from it all? My family, my friends, my home, my Life? Last night I gave it all over to Him. Told him I don't want it anymore. He can have it all, just take me and use me for whatever it is He needs me for. Stop being afraid of offending others, of fitting in, of being right all the time. Then after all I said in my prayer (and yes I get that saying and doing are two different things, pray for me on the doing part!) I open my bible today and read that passage in Luke. Like God really is laying the heavy stuff on me, telling me when I say those things this is what he is wanting me to be willing to do. Ok.

... Lord I'm willing!

I'm going to be adding a more serious exercise regimen to my POA. Probably cutting back on diet soda, then eventually coffee, cutting it out entirely if the Lord tells me it's necessary. The fact that quitting those things scare me tells me there is an issue there. Am i relying on coffee more than God? I have some thinking to do about that.

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Plan of Eating (POE)

Abstinence in Overeaters Anonymous is defined as "the action of refraining from compulsive eating and compulsive food behaviors while working towards or maintaining a healthy body weight. Spiritual, emotional and physical recovery is the result of living the Overeaters Anonymous Twelve-Step program.” If I have abstained from compulsive overeating, I am abstinent.

My Plan of Eating is what helps me find and maintain abstinence from compulsive overeating. My daily plan is to eat 3 meals and an optional snack without eating in between, avoid eating trigger foods, to plan my meals ahead of time, and to track my meals on my fitness pal so that I am accountable. I have a calorie goal, but that can be flexible depending on how much activity/ exercise I have had that day.

I am not perfect, I have days when I try to eat something I haven't had in a while, days where I experiement with different foods to see what I can or cannot handle. I have days where I eat compulsively, but not overeat- I am still abstinent. I have days where I didn't plan well enough and get stuck eating flour and sugar, if I didn't compulsively overeat- I'm still abstinent. If I'm sloppy with my POE I struggle more, so if I want to succeed then I try to stick with it. But not everything goes according to plan! I have to give myself grace and learn from mistakes, and pray for the willingness to stick with it.

Plan of Action

My Plan of Action is what I attempt to do daily to maintain abstinence.

Journaling/Daily Inventory

writing about my day, my feelings, praises and prayers.

Sponsorship

contacting my sponsor about what's going on with me, look for feedback and advice

Accountability Partners

friends who are in recovery with me that I can call and talk to if I need prayer, help, or just to chat and get my mind off of obsessions

Prayer

spending time with God, humbling myself, asking for my daily bread and armor

Bible Study

feeding my soul the word of God. I believe that the more I read it the more God can change me.

Meditation

spending time being quiet, allowing the Holy Spirit to move and speak to me and for me

Meetings

making going to meetings weekly a priority in my schedule

Exercise

God's natural antidepressant. Also helps me achieve a normal body weight

Proper Hygiene

getting dressed every day, doing my hair and make up every day, even if I am not leaving this house. I am a stay at home mom and it can be too easy to be lax and wear pajamas every day and not take care of myself. My body needs to be properly maintained if I am to continue life with peace and serenity

Meal Planning / Grocery Lists

important in avoiding compulsive eating/food behaviors... helps keep me on track. if my meals are planned out and the food is in the house then there is no reason for me to need to even think about it or make decisions emotionally.

Meal Tracking

on My Fitness Pal- my recovery friends are on there to keep me honest and accountable for ever bite/lick/taste. Helps me know exactly whats going in my mouth and combats mindless eating.